The Dreamer watches as a soul is born, as a spark from the essence, and descends into manifestation as a human.
Perhaps, the best way to approach, what I experienced last night, is to go back, and describe how I initially experienced it, in what I call the "big bang" effect. Then, I'll describe, what it is like, in terms of, how it is experienced in manifestation.
Initially, it, was very removed, in that, I observed, by looking at the essence of things at the very beginning. Something held everything together, and you could try to break free of that. But by and large, it had its own polarity. It held this essence together. As with a seed thought, a flicker of light would break loose.
Initially, upon getting loose, it would get really excited. I suppose you could almost say, that maybe, it still had freedom of choice. Or, maybe it had already lost it, when it broke free... because then it starts to descend, coming down, through the Djinn plane. All of that, at the out-breath, results in manifestation, as a human being, we'll say.
That whole journey becomes one of forgetfulness, in relationship to essence. This might be called looking at it from the macro. From the micro, you look at it in terms of this permeation, or the stillness, this empty space, what is it like, from the standpoint of manifestation?
I came to understand what it means, how you can get caught up in things, and lose your soul. Last night, I experienced, that there was something moving around inside of me, and that it could be situated, or sitting, in a permeation. This, might suddenly begin to notice stuff. In seeing its way, it could notice something in terms of the overallness. That's all it did, is notice it, it didn't feed it, it didn't touch it, it stayed invisible to it, but it could notice it. If it did anything other than that, it'd be at the top, where something broke loose. It still stayed in permeation, which meant that, the soul could come, could look, could move around.
Whereas, it knew how to let go of that, which is an illusionary projection of mind senses, in your overall orientation. It has held this, abiding stillness-permeating state but could move around. In other words, you move front to back, side to side; it moved around. In hearing the statement: "you can lose your soul, getting caught up in this and that," I did not know quite what that meant. You don't actually lose your soul. You lose the recognition of this quality of yourself, and the true space that you really are, which is this, permeation. Now, in my partner's dream, she applied a dream, to put this into order. What happened was, she had attempted to do something, in the outer.
However, you don't attempt to do something in the outer, as if this causes something meaningful to happen, but that's what she did. She has this boat, which is tied up, connected to the permeating invisible space. She knows that she feels that she takes this boat, the quality, she picks up passengers on this boat, takes them out into the water. And, because they're coming from the mind sense, overallness orientation, they don't really get what this is about. So, when they get back to shore, she feels they are symbolically stiffing her. It is what it is. She turns around recognizing the boat has an invisible tie to something else, like an invisible rope, and all is connected to something else.
So, she then gets back in, and permeates out into the unknown. Again, the permeation. Very beautiful little way of putting a dream to it. The only other thing I might say, is to read it better than me. When the overallness is brought into the all-abiding permeation, when it sweeps through the overallness, which is the composite dense trait, of all your mind sense orientation, it could possibly be swept up in terms of its illusionary mannerisms. In the permeation and in that stillness, it falls away.
The essence of our true nature is the stillness, that permeates, or the permeation that functions as a stillness. I mean, its stillness is almost loud in a relationship, as loudness is beckoning back in relation to looking, and seeing, this other stuff, sitting kind of pent-up, that she could have bought into. And then, boom, you're gone, it's lost, you've lost, but what have you lost? You've lost your soul.
I can now say, that the moving around of the soul is possible, for as long as the adherence is to the permeation. If the soul identifies and is caught in the denseness of things, it no longer recognizes the permeation. It recognizes the mind sense orientation then, trying to solve things and figure things out and make things work that way.
The soul, in this all-pervading permeation, can observe the overallness and not leave traces that set off reverberations that are deviations. You sit in the stillness.
I was trying to try to figure out another way to say this to my partner, telling her it was kind of like trying to split the atom. When you're looking down, all of this pent-up stuff, excited to a point where the slightest little thing will feed it, and they'll start making, creating, carrying on, and off it goes, off on a million tangents. You stay in an empty space. You just go right through the permeation issue. Although an odd way of saying it - it was experienced as a peek-in and peek-out movement of the soul, in relation to holding on to the permeation that is all things, and not the deviation that you might get into, while in an excited format.
Just like the initial thought, or the inflection of light emerging in a "big bang" way, initially coming out of this wholeness that has this magnetic quality, that is holding the essence together. When it comes out it's already lost, so to speak.
It's just a question of how far does it descend and fall. And as it descends and falls, to the point where, when speaking of the interval between the out-breath, and the in-breath, to where this yearning and longing is. This is where you get into the mystical aspect of things, where, if you can now let go, and let go, and let go, and hold to some sort of permeating magnetism of the permeation, (if it has a magnetism, I don't know) but in the stillness, you can continue letting go the subtleness of that. You could travel as far as that will carry you. That's the beauty of the stillness point, between the out-breath and the in-breath.
The main point of last night was the fact that, I never actually saw the movement of something inside of myself. Initially, when I saw that, I didn't believe it was possible, that something like that was actually like that. And then I came to realize that it's only like that because, I have gotten to a stillness point inside, such that, I am able to recognize the permeation, and the aspect of that which is actually experiential to a human. That quality that completes it, in terms of trying to come to an understanding about it, is called “soul.”
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