The Way of An Innernaut
The Way of An Innernaut
Innernaut Report 27
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Innernaut Report 27

How Are You Able To be Who You Really Are?

The theme that keeps repeating is: How are you able to be who you really are? which is a permeation that has no personal in it, that sweeps up, and takes in everything that there is in the overallness, and what we come to see reflectively. I guess I should back up.

There are multiple levels. In other words, the thoughts, and the ways that we project ourselves to be, is the densest way. We go out and take on this, that, and the other as our interests or needs. We pursue that. We apply a certain degree of momentum, focus, and attention to push aside this and push aside that. It turns to resistance in order to get something to unfold.

We create our own agreement-world then, within the overallness, upon which we function. That's a very personal and dense way, but take that away and you'll have an emptiness. You have a non-being; it's not personal. You have initially just the overallness with nothing written on it, so to speak, written or directed. Then comes the permeation, and the permeation is the aliveness that takes all of that in.

Then come the deviations in the permeations, and the deviations cause things like dreams, where you can be in a wonderful place that you can't describe, and then you wander through a door or into an alley, and you can never find your way back. Every turn you make is based upon a conceptualization, and the spiritually oriented way inside you trying to explore. You just stay permanently lost in a bewilderment and it can be very ghoulish.

I've done this too, both from somehow being where it is, and then deviating and seeing it as ghoulish that way. I've done it from being in a place that isn't quite right and I'm going to a place that is right. I don't know my way. I can't both, find my way and try to figure it out. The attempt to try to figure it out involves working with the mind senses or spiritual illusion. The deviations are very subtle. It's as if the human being is designed to be caught in everything that strikes them in the overall. The heart can take all of that in, but it seems to be more than the mind senses can sort out, while caught in the bombardment of a breath. They get caught in some movement out this way or that way.

If it's done on a spiritual level, it's a cult like idea of trying to do this or that, whatever it might be. It's a cult way of functioning. Behind that, however, is the permeating that isn't sealed. We all know or sense that we get caught in doingness in some fashion as if we can facilitate or co-create that, and what we co-create are deviations. It's always going to be better or greener somewhere else instead of the oneness, the wholeness, absoluteness, or at any time outside the present moment.

The distinction that's hard to catch up with is, their story is outer nature, and you have to just recognize how we grab our story and stick with it. We create a Dharma out of it, going through and living our life in this black and white way.

The distinction you must make is, having a sense of something more, where all of the other, falls away. Then you have the meandering ethers, in which you have deviations that come into play like a vibration, when the mind senses grab it, they look at it as something more, something other, and they attempt to make that deviation satisfy and serve some enlightenment that is personal. The personal is rationalized because the personal has a good motif about it. It has something meritorious to justify being able to adhere to the personal.

This is used to justify trying to bring all the religions into governing the world and why that would be such a wonderful thing. That's what it's about. All the religions are a deviation in the first place.

Those adhering to that, getting wrapped up in that, become very cult-like in their nature because they stay delineated in a particular way. They could be wonderful people, but they carry that bias. Deep down, even they know they can't get themselves out of the Purgatory. Even they know there is something more. The problem is they too, have gotten into a Purgatory of cult-like mannerisms. They have it in the wrong orientation as being something other than themselves, as being something with ascended masters or God in some other thing, instead of God being them. Thus, they are not blameworthy in terms of their deviation. In fact, they can get quite righteous about it. The more righteous they get, the more cultish they steer themselves to be.

The meditation dream I had was very difficult. I spent a very long time trying to write it up. After doing so, I kept coming back thinking how to add to it or continue it. Interestingly, I had this image. I was in a cave, but rain had affected what I had written down... Like a hieroglyphic or a petroglyph, even though not done on rock, per se, it just faded out to the point where I couldn't read it. I have this happen a lot, right? Where in my deviation, I'm shaking out something that's trying to let go and be led to permeating, free of my alienated nature which causes this to fade out. Nothing I can do about it. I must incorporate the permeation itself or the outer will take this away.

I think it might be kind of interesting to look at the sleep dream because it came through so quickly. This is a reoccurring dream where I am in a permeating way, but do not know how to hold onto it. So, I get lost easily when I get caught in deviated projections and repressed vibrations, I don't know where I am. I may think I'm going one way when I'm going another way. Because I'm relying upon the deviations; the mind sense is a deviation.

I've lost the permeating that is the aliveness for the overallness. It changes the overallness; it can deviate it. As I deviate with the aliveness of the permeating, the overallness responds accordingly. We don't all proceed the same way except in a collective consciousness state, where we form our agreements in relationship to a deviation. Where we've formed our own cults, encampments of how this is to be and that is to be. The dream I have is being in a place that is all-inclusive and intertwined.

And then I think, and I wander away. I end up being deviated. I know something more but can't get back to it. That's the sense.

There is so much more heart, but you can’t get it back to where it is more than the mind-sense deviated projection that created it. You can’t put it back to where it was. It's a permeation. Just like the ancient Chinese, they created the I Ching as a reflective long way of talking to the lower self.

Chess is also a way to connect to something higher. I think there's something up here. This is another way of pointing out that the permeating that is made, is in an overallness of permeating this design.

The permeating itself when in a natural space is just fine. It can be a nightmare and a bewilderment if the orientation within is based upon a way the synapses are firing around what got repressed, or if the mind senses stir a bias, enter a demeanor, or estrange from the heart breath. We learn about this in time and space through reflective experiences. Eventually, you come to realize that our focused attention upon who we are, which is a permeating essence that involves the overallness, is not deviated this way or that. To be deviated is human.

To not be deviated, to be only the permeation, is God. Because we are God but we act in a human way we lose track of ...( I just make up a whole bunch of words to try to describe something that can't be described.) ...the intertwined, inextricable effervescent, all inclusive, not-so-inclusive and undefined permeation.

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